Just finished reading this Book. It was a good book. He talked about how he wanted to be a great man of God. The book reads like a journal and he was pretty honest on some of his intentions. From working in the inner-city church, to spending time with Mentally handicapped men, working at a halfway house, and managing a missions outreach building supply store. The book ends with him going back home to his family.
One thing that struck true to me, we often try to become great men of God, by our own means. Praying hard, helping the helpless. But are we doing that in vain. Like if our natural tendency wasn't the help and we force ourselves to help just so we can look good with God. From my LIMITED understanding, God knows us. He understands us. We would be like whitewash tombs if we Lend a hand with bad intentions wouldn't it have just been better to not lend a hand at all. Its something I am probably going to be wrestling with for the next few days.
Are the things I am doing (praying, studying the bible, reading christian based books) is this just so I can feel good, or because I am trying to Connect in someway to an invisible God. Or I am really truly just looking for lip services, just someone to look at me and say "Wow you read all those books aren't you great" or if someone sees me studying my bible thinking " wow what a holy man" .
