A saved life??

Ok, I have been putting off this post for a while now. But here goes.

Lately I have been doing so analyzing of my faith, and what my true beliefs are.

recently I was thinking of "the church" and christian radio. Both of these in my opinion are setup for people who already believe.
Like christian radio, I love hearing sermons, I love hearing good messages that make me think, but I have noticed at the end of the message on the radio, the pastor will come back on and prayer a "Sinners prayer" with the radio audience. Now I am sure there are people who have accepted Jesus like this, and that is great. BUT I bet the majority like 90% to 10% odds that the people who are listening to Christian Radio are already saved. I think the same is true for church. It is setup for people who believe.

I have nothing against Christian Radio or the Church. I love both and spend time enjoying both every week. But are we actually living like Jesus has asked us to? Are we loving the world so much that we are viewed as something set apart from the rest of the world? Or are we caught up in the things of the world just like people who do not know Jesus.

I say all this because how much of my faith am I actually living out. Ponder that for a minute, how much of your faith are you living out. Are you loving sacrificually like Jesus did? Are you serving someone so much that it is literally Killing you?

I'm not. I'm not even close. I dont think I have much love for people at all. My patience is short, I feel like I am better than a lot of people (which means I am judging them) I also don't really feel for people. So do I really have Jesus in my Heart? Am I going to get to Heaven and have Jesus say "Wow dude you were awesome" Probably not. So am I living a "SAVED" life?

But even though I write this how do I get myself to change. How do I change the ME-CENTERED mindset that runs my life? How do I love without limits? How do I serve until I bleed? How do I love the world so much that I remind people of Jesus?