Like a Rock

Or maybe like a pebble but not this one....

Do I have faith like Peter, or Job? If my faith became truly tested and everything I knew fell completely apart would I still be true to God.

How would I hold up? What would happen to my faith if I went through the testing of Job? What would happen if I had to watch my Savior get beaten right in front of me, (not wanting to get beat myself, I might deny him also) then having to see him on the cross.

How does my faith hold up now? I must say I am kind of like Job in a sense regardless of what is thrown at me I still believe in God. Do I like everything that happens, well "No". But the Bible points out, God is love, God is just. So I must go threw crap because in someway I deserve it. I know of many things I do that God would and does not approve of. But how do you get to a place where you are able to block out the entire world and focus on what God has for you????????

How do you get to the place where you only focus on Jesus?

I try to study the bible, I listen to sermons all day, but truth be known all the things I have read, all the messages I have heard, haven't changed my heart all that much. I mean I don't think I love like Jesus did. Sometimes I think I am becoming a professional church attender. Sometimes I feel like I haven't progressed at all. the more I study myself the more I realize I have a long ways to go. I wish I was able to say that "I have this all figured out, follow me" But I am still trying to find the path to Follow jesus. Jesus claims to be the way. I need to follow him.

I feel like Jesus is a Taxi, he knows how to get us to the place we need to be, we just have to call out, flag him down and hop in. But I like to be in control of the driving. I need to figure out just how this relationship with Jesus and me is going to work. I think I need to learn more about him, more about what the holy spirit is up to, and how to truly get in line with God's will.

Ok I think that is all my rantings for today.